i guess it's cause i and her experience the same thing and lack of something there off that we get together along so well. we aren't realy good at anything though truth to be told i always thought she was. but i guess i was wrong.

the fact that we were never really good in that particular area makes us look small and suffer in the unspoken tension and perssure that continuously surround us. the common lack of interst that bring us together so well.

it's hard really, to cope with an unnerving team of atheletes who seems to be a never ending of excellence. the look and thought of being look down upon never on the same level is demoralizing and threatening to ones moral aspect. it's sad really, cause there are many others who are not as strong as us to continue in life, or perhaps not so lucky to find friends to talk to about thier silent anger and retreat into thier little shell.

to be shunned and to never be outstanding, to always look up and never look down. these are the times where we take the frightful fall of live cause we never end up that lucky.